anxiety making me crazy

[stacy24]

So i have had anxiety half my life i should be use to this by now but I'm afraid i never will..
I'm on paxil 20mg but some times i forget to take it and i go little crazy for couple days ..
I feel like I'm coming down with something and I'm scared of being sick I'm always afraid its something more then just a common cold. Now i fear I'm dying and i will not wake up in the morning all this over maybe a head cold ..What the hell is wrong with me even i know how dumb it sounds yet i go into panic mode not knowing what to do just fall into an an anxiety attack or freak out and cry.
I'm to the point right now of geez just put me out of my misery cause that's all it is now irritating and stupid why i should feel this way when I'm completely healthy .. I'm going to be a kidney donor some time in the next year and I've had every test done and I'm a match and everything and they wouldn't let me be a donor if i wasn't completely healthy ...am i right?but then i think no its just developing or they have missed something .. why do we have to live this way .. it really sucks but I'm so grateful they have meds for this or i would be in the nut house.. anyone have the same problems and can u tell me how u react to somethings that freaks u out and any advice on how to look past it and not dwell on it .. like the other day i had like a little tiny bruise on my arm and i freaked out all day over it ... how stupid is that ?
thanks for listening
Stacy

[kjohop]

I obsess over stuff too... I know you are on meds but are you talking to anyone? That helps. There are therapies out there designed to deal with this stuff. Cognative behavioral and exposure therapies are great. There are also good books out there by Claire Weeks and Edmund Bourne. You have to challenge that irrational fear somehow.. one technique is to write it down and ask yourself.. what is the worst that could happen, what are the true odds that this is what is happening? How would you handle it? How would you tell a loved one or a friend to handle it? The anxiety and the feared disease?
Hang in there.. I know this is no fun!

[stacy24]

thank you so much for ur reply it means alot i love this site because if im feeling bad and need to vent or get some advice there is people like me that go through that same as i do everyday . :)

[WiSp]

I freak all the day me too. You're not alone. I don't think about a disease. I just freak on any body feeling, thinking I'm sick one way or another. Anti-anxiety meds can solve this. I just wanted to let you know. It will work like this: slowly you will start to not care about your daily physical feelings. So no more freaking.

[gagirl09]

I obsess a lot too and I have had anxiety half my life also. Crap tonight in class I was obsessing just because I didn't know to work a number in a text message on my phone! Now thats crazy!!! I also have seen things on my body and have obsessed about it for a whole day and if not longer.

[IowaAnxiety]

I too have a problem with obsessing!  I had myself convinced I was having a heart attack once and even went and got tested for it and I am only 25 and healthy!  After that I had myself convinced that I was losing my mind and was going to be put into a home.  Come to find out it was anxiety and I found a great p.doc who was able to assist me in realizing that what I was going threw could be helped and there was healing!  Take the time to realize that you are NOT dying and that you will get better!  You are not alone many of us feel this way and we are here with you in this!  Keep your chin up!


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