Minor Relapse

[lisad27]

Been doing great the majority of January, but the last couple of days, I have been feeling really anxious and for no specific reason.  (I know, join the club!)  But I had been at least able to go about the majority of the day feeling pretty good and without that anxious feeling in my stomach that I hate.  I don't really have any specific health fear right now so maybe this has morphed into general anxiety?  I actually told my husband the other night how I'd been feeling and he was very supportive so I thought that I would feel instantly better and relieved and the anxiety would be gone, but the next day I started feeling anxious again and I don't know why.  Today I had a yearly exam scheduled at the gyno so I know I was dreading going there, but I did and it was fine but now I"m still feeling this way.  It is so frustrating!  I know it takes a while to feel like your normal self, especially when your body  has been in high anxiety mode for a month or more, but I just want my life back.  

[gridder]

People probably get tired of hearing me say this, but as the Buddhists say -- life is suffering. We all suffer. We all have good days and bad ones. What turns plain old pain into suffering is wishing it away. If you have pain, just feel it and go on. If you have anxiety, just let it be and go on. It is the rumination over "when will it end?!?!?!?!" and "why me!!??!??!?!" that cause the real suffering.

[elvisgump]

i never get tired of hearing you saying that...

[lisad27]

People probably get tired of hearing me say this, but as the Buddhists say -- life is suffering. We all suffer. We all have good days and bad ones. What turns plain old pain into suffering is wishing it away. If you have pain, just feel it and go on. If you have anxiety, just let it be and go on. It is the rumination over "when will it end?!?!?!?!" and "why me!!??!??!?!" that cause the real suffering.

Actually, those words are comforting and help me to have a different perspective on all this.  I guess you have a string of good days and think "yeah maybe this has all been a bad dream!" but you can wake up the next morning with the anxiety still hanging around.  I know it will get better eventually but I just have to learn to "feel" it, as you say, and look forward to the next day.  Thanks for the helpful words.