But how to know when it's time to go back on a med? How to know if the time passed without it was enough to hope it to work again? You know, with zoloft I experienced something really weird. During the last year, some side effects that I only have when I start it, were back again for one or two days and disappearing. It happened 4 or 5 times in a year. It was never happened on the other years. It was maybe an alarm that something has changed. I spent a lot of time in a very stressing life and with no anxiety at all, only some stress. Then one day anxiety got back and was set to stay...at this time I've understood that zoloft was not helping anymore.
Even if we can use the same old SSRI again and have it working, I don't know if I will return on zoloft because even if anxiety was out, my emotions were really erased. I was a zombie and I knew I could not live this way forever. I was feeling like a machine. Productive, but with no passion, no emotions, no hope, no dreams. It was the reason why I thought to leave zoloft. I was not side effects free, but the few were not so terrible. I was sweating much more than others, I had little muscle spasms and to watch movies on a giant screen was too much for my eyes. But those things are not a good reason to stop, especially if anxiety disappeared. The only real problem was for emotions and it was worrying me more and more. At this time I had no idea it could stop working. When it happened, I had now 2 good reasons to do it. I'm still in a withdrawal (celexa) and still very sick because of it. But I can't give up (I'm really stubborn and it's probably this that saved me from despair). I plan to try prozac next...Or maybe buspar. Maybe it's the time to try something else than a SSRI. I will talk about this stuff with my psychiatrist. I've still hope in meds. If celexa is very powerful to make me sick and worse for anxiety, I hope there's one powerful too but going in the opposite direction and free me. With the forum I've also discovered something weird. All people that got sick on paxil and zoloft, were ok on celexa, for example. And I've been ok on paxil and zoloft, but celexa destroyed me completely. I may dream, but it seems to exist some kind of polarity...until I find people that paxil, zoloft, and celexa were horrible or all good. But for now, all the people I read fit perfectly in the polarity. I even asked someone (a celexa fan) what else make her sick (she can't tolerate paxil and zoloft), to try it myself because I seem to be the inverse of her. Well don't take my thoughts seriously, it's just intriguing and I really don't want to try another that will make me worse. If I choose prozac it's because it's one of the most used, and it's old so we know a lot of stuff on it, it was a big half life so it's soft for side effects and withdrawal.