LOST and need HELP

[AnxiousGuy86]

i just need to know that there are people out there that understand the most extreme and darkest forms of loneliness that I'm feeling right now.

having social phobia has put me in a really dark place in the last few years.I've lost basically every friend i had,and the people that i thought were my true friends are proving to be otherwise.

i found out this October that my dad has cancer.i have a small family and my dad and sister are really all i have.my mom past away from cancer when i was 11,and now I'm 23 and may lose my other parent to the same thing.

Ive tried going to people i thought were there for me as i was for them in they're times of  need,but they have been nothing more then fair weather friends.

i cant even describe in words how lonely i am,i see people going out and having fun,couples in love and i just sit and wish that i could just be better so that i can to do what i really want to do in life and just start enjoying some of the things that life has to offer.


this last years been soo crazy and life altering for me,its made me realise how precious life is.however its really hard right now to keep up this positive attitude I've tried to keep over the last 6 months.

my heart and mind and soul are being tourted and i don't know what else to do.this site has some amazing people in it,Ive talked to a few.i wish no one would ever have to feel the pain i feel right now.

I'm not looking for sympathy , i know everyone has a story,i just need to get this off my chest and hopefully someone out there knows what its like to feel how i feel.

Thank to anyone  that reads this long post,and i hope everyone can understand what I'm trying to convey.

Peace and Love to All

[blynea]

I unfortunately don't think I can help you, but I wanted to say how sorry I am about your Dad.  Maybe you could join some local clubs or take a class in something to get to know new people.  It's definitely good to talk to people & be able to vent when you need to.  I have anxiety issues, but I think they're different from what you experience.  You could try the chat room on here also, I've done that a couple times & everyone seems real nice & willing to help if they can.

Take care & best wishes to you & your family!

[AnxiousGuy86]

Thanks for your suggestions and best wishes.

[tigerpaw]

I can so relate to that feeling of deep despair, like your looking up to see the bottom. I have other triggers that have sent me spiraling in the past than you, however they effect us in similar fashions. I can only suggest reaching out for a therapist, like going to one once a week at first and really air it out. You are in a very stressful, emotional, place right now, and suggestions like "go see a movie" aren't going to work.  You need to handle your life situations in a healthy way. Anyway I am rambling, just know I have felt your pain. Through meds and therapy I am doing well so there are roads that lead to a happier place emotionally!

God Bless and Peace!!!

[AnxiousGuy86]

Thanks for the advice,i started CBT  in April but i haven't been in a few months because of my angoraphobia and my dads health.I realise now that i need to get back to it.This site has helped alot and the people on here are great.

Thanks again for taking the time to read and  reply to this desperate call for help.I'm glad to hear that theres hope and you have found a path to being happy.I wouldn't wish this type of loneliness and pain on even a worse enemy .

Peace Brother