Questions on Obsession

[Rapture]

Im brand new here, and pretty much new to all of this....so I am bound to have many questions, so this is my shot at the first and most pressing matter. I would love for you all to try and give me and answer or suggestions...even just relating would be nice.

I have OCD, its nothing humongously bad, I rarely have compulsions, mostly just obsessions, even though I have been known to wash my hands alot and do things in certain orders....but my obsessions can get a little hindersome. I think about things....waaay too much, most of these play like tapes, movies...over and over in my head, there really is no proper way to explain these excpet that there gorey....pictures, tapes, images of surgery, mutilation...ect. I presume myself to be a very average girl....its not like a have an obsession with death.......or maybe I do....oh...well, yeah. Sometimes, this is all I can think of, and when Im not thinking of it, I worry about, and think about thinking of it. I tried to explain it, and no one can understand.....but, they play, over and over...sometimes I dream about them....and...I just want some help. Because....the sad thing about all this is....I like them...they dont scare me, they dont necesarrily harm me....they just stir me up, and hinder my thoughts.....Thank you for reading this, and I hope to hear from some of you soon!

Me

[rara]

I do not think that`s such a small matter if you are preoccupied whit these thoughts as much as you say you are.
I used to deminish my ocd, not due to shame but efficency. The thoughst took up so much time i thought any time i had left (that is as soon as i was done obsessing about unreasnoble incidences which i still can part from reality or imagry, only to start up again...) i had to spend on homeworks and other alarming stuff. It`s hard to explain. Sometimes i liked the obsessidies, that i did feel guilt about. I thought i was unfocused and that that was why i could not concentrate.
Funny how i started concentrating and studying (which i love) as soon as i seeked help (after more than a decade) and was prescribed some medicine...

I am not a proffesional but my rule us usually: if it`s botheringsome, seek help and judgeing from what you`ve tolld me, it is "hindersome" for you.