Whats the point

[gloomy]

I am wondering what the point of everything is at the moment,  I feel so stressed I don't know which way to turn.  I have four children and a husband who I never feel I spend enough quality time with.  I am doing a full time University degree which I enjoy and desperately want to achieve.  I can just about juggle the Uni and family commitments.  As soon as anything is added I lose it.  Recently my long lost aunt got in touch after 30 years, (my fathers sister).  My father walked out when I was 2 and that was the last I ever heard of him until 8 years ago then I found out he had died of cancer.  My aunt has now got in touch saying she has missed me and wants a relationship with me.  Call me suspicious but I dont trust her and cant believe she expects me to play happy families after all where has she been for the last 30 years?  Too little too late.  This has really upset everything and my anxiety is sky high again and I think I may have to go back on the Meds.  I remind myself of that kids game buckaroo where you have to pile more and more things on its back until it bucks and throws it all off.  My husband is a boxing coach and is under an enormous amount of pressure at the moment due to various factors, I have listened and tried to advise him but this is getting me down aswell.  I feel like a sinking ship and wanted to tell everybody in the hope that it made me feel better.  On top of all this my mother is totally neurotic and is threatening to kill herself again.  This has happened many times over the years but there is always the chance she might do it so I have to listen and try and calm her down.      I lost my catholic faith 5 years ago when my son died so I dont even have the church now.  I know some of these things are jus life stresses that everybody suffers but I just cant deal with them effectively.  Sorry to everybody who is genuinely suffering at the moment I know my problems arent major in comparison to some threads on here
 

[GMan86]

First off, everyone's problems on this forum is EQUALLY important. I can definately see where the anxiety is coming from as far as your aunt and dad are concerned. That is unfortunate that it happened that way but NONE of it was your fault. I commed you for being so strong all of these years without a father. It must have been tough for you. It is great you have aspirations of completing your bachelors degree. I dont think going back on medication is a bad idea, to be honest. Don't look at the meds as a bad thing. Sometimes life throws us a curveball and we have to adjust accordingly. I am sad to hear that you lost faith in the church. What happened to your son is very tragic. Hang in there gloomy. Tell us what you decide to do as far as medication goes. We all would like to know 

[lilvanillachica1]

im so sorry about your son. you sound very stressed right now hopefully you find a way to deal.
your problems are important, and we are all here to listen and help anyway we can
you can email me if you need to talk!
good luck
courtney

[gloomy]

thanks everybody  I just needed to vent.  In some ways I have overcome so much but in other ways I still feel really fragile.  Have tried to prioritise things a bit for this week because I get into the trap of doing anything rather than something productive which makes my anxiety worse. 

[Cella]

Dear GLOOMY:

I hope you are feeling a bit better.  There are good & bad days w/ anxiety & or depression.  It is normal & healthy.  I am sorry for your discomfort.  However, YOU HAVE SUPPORT HERE: knowing you have people who can literally relate to what you're feeling/experincing is liberating.  It takes great COURAGE to reach out to others & I applaud you!

I want you to know YOU ARE NOT ALONE.  Remember, take things 1 day 0213 a time ='s BABY STEPS.  Be compassionate w/ yourself - YOU'RE HEALING.

Support & Well Wishes,

CELLA

[GMan86]

Hope you are feeling better gloomy. We all have our bad days.

[ConstantWorrier]

Dear Gloomy,
I as well understand the roots of your pain. I know that happiness is something that seems out of reach when you're dealing with depression and anxiety, I definitely can relate.
Problems are problems. They cause pain, sometimes in larger amounts than others. Yes, some people have problems that seem like they could be a considerable amount larger than yours. But we are all here for a reason, to get our problems heard and to reach out for help.
I am happy that you took the time to reach out to everyone.
Everyone has their good and bad days. Hope you get better!!