GAD completely debilitating me at work - Please help!!!

[thinker247]

For at least the last three weeks or so I have been avoiding my work, unable to concentrate and completely exhausted. I have not been able to handle the tasks I have been given. My boss is putting on the pressure (understandably) for me to learn how to analyze some data on MS Access (a program I've never used), and I just can't seem to muster up the energy, motivation and logic to make any significant progress. I end up just going on-line all day on this forum, 0409, 0275 trying to pass the time and distracting myself from the fact that I am incapable of completing a specific task, because thinking about it just make me feel even more helpless, angry and frustrated. I really don't want to have a talk with my boss, but I think I have to. Pushing through just hasn't worked. I think where I am with my anxiety just doesn't allow for my learning new programs and new tasks. I may need to ask her of she can give me some more repetitive and simple tasks to do...I don't know if she will do so, but I don't know what else to do. The pay is good and I definitely need to keep working because I have debt from school and I my mother really can't help with my day to day finances. I am terrified to go to work tomorrow because I will have to tell my boss at some point that I have not completed my task. Everytime I hear someone sniffling or keys jingling I clench up and get panicky becuase I wonder if it is my boss coming by to ask me how far along I am. I can't take it anymore!! It's like I'm watching myself go through this and there is nothing I can do about it!! I don't know what to do. I hate having to talk about my GAD with bosses. Back in College, I had to have this conversation with professors and I felt so weak about it. Plus, I can not offer my boss any reassurance that I will be getting any better any time soon since I have suffered from anxiety for like 10 years! Please help, I'm considering not going in to work tomorrow just so I don't have to face the disappointment and anxiety involved in just sitting there and telling my boss that I have done nothing...
Thanks   

[stosh]

I am sorry to hear this. I can remember a time when a similar thing happened to me. My boss was not sympthathetic at all. I know how difficult this is for you but my suggestion is to dig down deep and really work at trying to complete this task even if it means putting in a little extra time. If it is a softare issue maybe you can practice a little at home?

[tigerpaw]

PICK UP THE PHONE AND CALL A THERAPIST NOW!!!!

Way to long not to have sought out psychiatric help!!!