anxiety wont stop

[apple]

So ever since this hypomanic episode, I have had my anxiety steady 24/7.  Yes it is better than the mania but its getting annoying.  I dont want to do anything but sit here shakin my legs at the computer with my heating pad on my back.  When the board is busy I get overwhelmed and cant focus and then when its quiet I wish it was busy.  God this place is my safe haven.

I have accomplished a lot, makin myself do things, but I have no motivation at all.  I wish the Effexor would not take so long to do what it supposed to do. 

[kiara]

Hi apple im sorry that you are feeling like this . ii went through a period like this not so long ago . and i used three of the best tools i could.
1 . cry cry and cry some more if you keep all that energy building up inside you it really is not good for you im telling you  it works  if you feel awkward bout it rent a really sad movie.
2 i talked talked and talked some more and i mean i did not hold anything back i felt like some of things  i was saying were ridiculous but nothing you feel is ridiculous remmember that!
3 found an interest i got jigsaw puzzels belive it or not these are brilliant they take so much time and all of your concentration so you cant even think about your anxiety you get so caught up in tryin to find the right pieces.
oh and i invented this little thing i ues blowing buubles yes the kids kind im telling you try it blow the bubbles and imagine all the fear and anxiety and unwanted feelings going with them and when they burst there gone.
 did you read my posts an panic disorder and agriphobia?

[apple]

I have read all your posts sweety...I loved your poem.

Thank you for the tips, I'm gonna try them, sitting here isnt getting me anywhere. 

Luv n hugs

Apple

[pinky5]

Apple,

Hang in there, we are here for you!! You've really had more than your share of tough times lately, I hope things are better for you soon.

Rachel

[kiara]

thats the attitude to have hun your a very strong person at the back of this the fog always clears eventually x x x x

[GreyGoose]

Hi Apple

Wow, can I ever relate to the 24/7 anxiety!. I have periods of intense anxiety that sometimes last for days or even weeks. During this time, I feel like the anxiety is literally "buzzing" through me like electricity and I get numbness, tingling, twitches and a whole other range of symptoms. It can be pretty frightening at times, that's for sure. In fact, for the last 45 minutes I have been experiencing TONS of anxiety and just took a Xanax about 10 minutes ago. My throat also feels tight right now and I feel like I've just drank 30 cups of coffee. Here's hoping that things start looking up for both of us (in fact, ALL of us) soon!  .

- Regards, GreyGoose

[o-ren]

Sorry you are feeling blue right now.  Hang in there, it will get better soon.   

[GMan86]

Hang in there, we've got your back!

[lilvanillachica1]

apple,
im sorry youve been having such a bad time! I hope your feeling better now
courtney

[apple]

I feel as if I'm heading back into the hypomania faze again....

[o-ren]

Do you have any idea why you think you are going back to that phase? Did something happen? Anyways I hope you get through this Apple.  Be strong.

[kiara]

im sorry that your feeling so bad right now! You can get through this though! we are all here to talk about  it if you like hun !  have you been trying the exercises. i have another one  that is very good you will need some one to help you with it though! i will post it soon im just trying to think of the right way to explain it to you i think il have to write it out first. its such a pity i cant draw a diagram here to show you!

[anxiousinfla]

I've been there Apple and am still there, at times. Too many times.

Your anxiety seems to be a lot like mine. All consuming 24/7.

I know you are a fan of CBT (I believe in it also), however, there comes a time when if the anxiety is too much to handle, the CBT goes by the wayside.

I have posted it before......if you have health insurance, do some research on VNS. It has been the savior for many sufferers like us.

Hang in there...we are al here for you as you have been for us!!!

[apple]

I'm going back to the doctor as soon as I can.  Its not so much anxiety anymore as apposed to enormous amounts of adrenalin pumping thru me and thats it.  Even the meds and exercise are not working at all. 

[GMan86]

Good luck with the doc and keep us posted.

[Emily]

Apple my love! I hope you start feeling better soon! What types of exercises are you doing? Have you tried yoga? I would do it more often if I wasn't always by myself. I just can't stay motivated! It's very relaxing though. I think of you daily and wonder how you are feeling. You were doing so well until the husband went hunting.. doesn't that tick you off? Well, I hope as time goes by, you are able to get back to feeling ok. Take care sweetie.

Lots of Love,
Emily

[apple]

I walk, run, stationary bike, I have a rebound trampoline.  Nothing I take or do gets rid of the adrenalin.  I have no other symptoms, just too much adrenalin that I cant sit still and shake.

I know what you mean about no motivation when alone..   I have the same problem...   me bad.

[Emily]

The adrenaline.. is that all from your Anxiety? I'm sorry 

[GMan86]

I try and use my adrenalin from stress in similar ways apple. Exercise does it for me.

[Emily]

Housework takes care of mine 

[Janey]

Hey Apple Matey,

I find that going to the Gym lately has helped me and unfortunately the meds need to keep me level.

I think you best get to the doc to sort all this out so you don't feel uncomfortable like this anymore.

Thinking of you though and keep us posted.

Janey   

[kiara]

hi hun  how did you get on with your doc appt yesterday i hope all went well for you and you have got some relief and rest. iv looked through that book for you couldnt find much but i did find out one thing        If your adrenaline has been triggered, acceptance is the stance that holds the last fear. Resisting only increases and prolongs the adreanaline surge, and makes you more tense and afraid, whereas flowing with it allows it to spend itself in the quickest time. it wont finish until all the molecules of the chemical have left your bloodstream. floating with the wave of molecules as it washes over  you and going with whatever physical reactions your body is having allows adrenaline to spend itself more quickly because your not creating anymore. make a statement of acceptance ie. all the sensations i am feeling now will pass. i can allow this to wash over me
 I hope this helps i also read that beta blockers can help. you should try getting a book on adrenaline management hope this helps

[GMan86]

Good post Kiara, I am going to try that method out myself.

[kiara]

Thank you it really does help

[apple]

That was very interesting kiara.  My problem was I would exhaust myself, sleep and do it again.

The doctors visit was great.  He started me on Lithium for the bipolar.  I had a rough sleep last night but I feel better today...no adrenalin!!!

We'll see how things go, I hope I start coming back to a sense of peace finally.