Now . . . I can't sleep.

[oboyrosie]

Hi Guys- I'm a long time sufferer (on and off) for the majority of my life (i'm 38).  I deal with it my way and the best way I know - but my nerves have been like a rubber band since Christmas mostly to do with my mentally retarded brother being ill and living 3 hours away.  I'm sure all these "new" symptoms are related to my nerves going boiiiiinnnnnngggggg (lol).  Lately it's hard to go to the store, take a simple walk around the block, itty bitty moments of breathing anxiety, the urge to RRRRRUUUUUNNNNN home as fast as I can and than when I get there talk myself down from full blown panic.   My home/car used to be a place the moment I stepped into I was relaxed but now hmmmmmm - what the heck - not so much.  Now last night - I went to bed around 10:30ish (which is early for me I'm usually out around midnight).  I'm up at 11:30, 12:00, 3:00, 3:30 and the last time I looked at the clock it was 4:23.  I got up to a .25 xanax (that always did the trick) but for some reason last night I couldn't re-direct my anxiety.  Can anybody relate???

Oh ya and a cruise planned to Italy/Greece in October which I may have to bale out of gracefully until I can get this under control.  I've recently seen a psch and was given Lexapro (again. . .don't like meds haven't started taking it) and meeting with a counselor in July - sometimes I guess a person cannot do this alone.

Rosie

[tigerpaw]

Well Rosie I believe we all get to the point where its either living life with anxiety out of control or facing the fact that meds are at least a temporary fix. Having been on meds for many years let me say most of the horror stories you hear are from uneducated persons and rumors.  They do work.  I would start taking the PAXIL and move on to a normal life.

Just my thoughts!!

Peace and God Bless!

[oboyrosie]

Yes I agree - but at the moment have issues with taking medicine other than an Aspirin and my little xanax daily.  My nerves just seem to be on end with EVERYTHING right now.   I will have to suck it up or I feel I'll be in a downward spiral for some time.

Thanks!

[jasonibs9]

rosie ,
  I took that xanax too a few years ago and that stuff just made me have deeper , more crazy anxiety.  It would work fine for like 4 hrs. and then it would erupt 4 x worse in the next episode.  I don't care for taking pills either. 

   I hope you make it to Italy and I can imagine how you must feel when you try to invision going on this trip.  I have a trip to Hawaii coming up that I'm kinda freaked out about myself..   Like a separation anxiety I experience when leaving far from home.