Hi,
My name is Saundra and I am 33 years old. I just wanted to let you know I understand what you are going thru. Let me suggest a medication that worked great for me for several years.....Celxa or its sister drug Lexapro. I also had tried several of the meds you have, with no luck. The two fornamed drugs help GAD tremendously. Actually, several of my friends suffering from some of the same issues I have tried those drugs with a significant amount of success. The biggest benefit we have all found is you can notice a difference within a few days. The side effects are minimal. Dry mouth was the only one I experienced, and it was gone within a week. OHhh, not the only one, now that I am not using the meds, I have noticed a substancial increase in my sex drive, so I do believe it lowers drive. The only other thing I can say is it only worked for about 5 years for me. I am no longer taking it because it no longer works. That may be something specialized to me though, as I have had that problem with alot of drugs including antibiotics.
I too had a monther with alot of issues, and I learned early on the only one that was going to give me support and strength was me. That is really hard when you struggle with issues of depression and anxiety. My mother had serious anxiety issues and would "fly off the handle" over every little thing. She turned to alcohol to self medicate, as did my father. Luckily, growing up that way, I made a decision early on to take a different path. I will never forgive my mother for the things she has done, however, I can understand. Mental illness needs to come more to the forefront of society. Treating chemical dependency cannot very often be successfull without getting to the root of the issues, usually mental illness.
My anxiety would present intelf in the form of anger. I can get very, very angry very easily. the Celexa and Lexapro really eliminated that. Another great drug is Zoloft, but the side effects for me were 6 full weeks of extreme exhaustion. With 5 kids, that didnt work. (Made it thru the 6 weeks the first time, then when my dad was dying I forgot to take it for about 2 weeks. I wasnt willing to go thru the 6 weeks again. that is when I found Celexa)
Get a new doctor. I do suggest on top of a new medication, doing some therapy. It sure does help to sit and talk to someone who isnt going to think you are crazy. (Doesnt hurt to know the therapist sees people much more crazy than you think you are too....LOL) There are alot of exercises one can do to calm the mind, it just takes an exreme amount of concentration and disciplilne. But, when you do it the first time, the freedom you feel is unexplainable. You will, for the first time, feel like you have some control in the situation.
Good luck
