for me its the OCD-like issues. Keep in mind I never do this kinda thing when not in a panic/anxiety/prepanic anxiety state. I'll get it in my head that I ened to keep checking to see if my boyfriend's coming home. Why? I don't know. I'll go and check the window, sometime as often as ten minutes, even if im taking a bath. I seriously have no idea what the point of all this is. Its not like he comes home at random times; i know exactly when he'll be back (well, give or take a few minutes.) And its not like anything bad would happen if he showed up, with or without me noticing. We get along as fine as any other couple.
And yet there I go, over and over again, even when i know its stupid. But if for whatever reason I can get passed this, my anxiety shifts. I take long baths, and in these states i'll keep turning the water off, or barely on at all, out of fear i'm bothering my neighbors below. (apartment.)
These are neighbors who routinely blast music so loud, that I can't hear my own things. And I get obsessively worried with a bath wherre the water is so quiet and slow that it'd take 45 minutes to fill up will upset them. But I'll keep doing it, and I don't know why. Also a note, I have not once gotten a complaint from them, nor filed a complaint about their noise or anything. So its not like im dreading confrontation.
Oh, and just to make this all the more horrible, for a while we didnt have downstairs neighbors. And yet I kept having that exact same reaction.
I can deal with the terror. Im good at that. What I'm not good at is doing things that have no purpose and never could have any real purpose and yet I get incrediblt nervous. Every time I think "No, I'm not going to check the window again" Boom nervous. Dont even skip a beat.