Feel like a lost puppy today

[aussiegirl29]

I am trying too like like a normal person, I have like an emptyness inside.
I hate it, I worry that with my anxiety I have depression and I'll never be rid of this crap..... 

[apple]

I think the 2 cross paths a lot.  I feel the same way off and on.  It is a very rotten feeling.  Its tough living with anxiety.  It does get depressing when you cant find the light at the end of the tunnel.  It is there tho sweety.  Sometimes its hard to see.  Just keep fighting...it will become managable if you dont give up looking for answers.

[aussiegirl29]

 :yes:Thanks Apple went to doctors and he said I should up my Lexapro to 15Mg and then see how I feel. Had a sad day as it was Steve Irwins funeral and I felt really emotional.
I still was having big problems with taking meds at all but the doctors said "why, if you had an infection you would have antibotics? so just because you don't have enough seritonen to your brain you take tablets for it"
It made me think about things and how I waste time stressing. I started reading a book "Love is letting go of Fear" and it is great it's about re-training my brain.
I read that you were having a bad time about your hubby going hunting....
I really hope you are feeling better
God bless xxxx     

[apple]

Thanks sweety...I really havnt been myself and very sad.  I cant wait till he's home.  Who wrote the book you mentioned?  I'd be interested in reading it.

I like your doctor...he's right, if it means less suffering why not?  I hope the up in meds helps you.  let me know how you do.

[NightOwl]

That sucks.  That's what really got my depression started up again recently is suddenly one day i woke up feeling so empty.  And it gets so confusing on whether anxiety causes the depression or whether the depression is there first then it causes more anxiety.  And really doctors never seem to figure it all out enough.

But anyway I hope you're doing better soon.  I get all depressed over things in the news, especially involving death. 

[aussiegirl29]

The book that I've been reading is called " LOVE is letting go of FEAR" by Gerald G Jampolsky M.D
It's about changing the way you think of yourself and others. Day by day it gives you a challenge to think about seeing something a different way. example

Throughout the day when you are tempted to hurt yourself through attack thoughts,say with determination.
"I want to experience peace of mind right now. I happily let go all attack thoughts and choose peace instead..."
It's been helping...
I feeling alot better than last week.....
 

[apple]

Cool thanks for that...glad its helping you.    Hope you keep up!