I just had a full blown panic attack and massive bout of depression

[Aussie]

Hello,

I thought I was doing so well, I had just returned to work after being off for 2 1/2 weeks sick with ear infections. Now its the weekend and I thought I would just have a relaxing weekend at home. I had a couple of beers last night and all was well then today I got mcdonalds for lunch with coke as the drink and then this afternoon I got really depressed and anxious and had to go for a jog. Halfway through my jog I had a panic attack and had to quickly walk home.

I am still extremely nervous and depressed while I write this, even though the panic attack has gone away I just feel really awful. Sometimes I think to myself that the only direction my life is heading is into a mental ward somewhere.

Anyways, sorry, but I feel I needed to vent here. I hope I am able to sleep tonight and that this passes in the morning, because I can't have anymore time off work.

I took 2 1/2 months off work last year when I was having daily panic attacks. At least my boss is sympathetic, but with this global financial thing it gives me even more reason to worry about losing my job.

I guess thats GAD for you hey, always worrying about everything.

Anyway, thanks for reading.

[mandah2386]

I'm sorry that you've had a hard time lately. Do you know what could have triggered your anxiety attack? I know it seems like you may be going crazy, I think everyone dealing with depression/anxiety has had that thought, but you're not. You are just going through a rough patch and soon it will get better. Are you currently taking any medicine or in therapy?

[Aussie]

I'm sorry that you've had a hard time lately. Do you know what could have triggered your anxiety attack? I know it seems like you may be going crazy, I think everyone dealing with depression/anxiety has had that thought, but you're not. You are just going through a rough patch and soon it will get better. Are you currently taking any medicine or in therapy?

Yes I'm currently taking 10mg of lexapro each day and 10mg of valium each day. I valium when I wake up and one before dinner.

I'm currently seeing my psychiatrist on average once a month.

I was feeling pretty good on the weekend so I had a drink of coke, a couple of beers and mcdonals, so it might have been that which triggered it off. Also 2 weeks ago I had severe ear infections in both my ears and I have only just recovered from that so it may have been that as well.

I decided to fight it as much as possible today and go to work but I was having very bad anxiety attacks all day and was close to having a full blown panic attack on the way home from work tonight.

It really worries me because I'm probably going to have to take time off to fight this but I don't know if I will lose my job or not in the process.

[Aussie]

Also, maybe it was the anti-biotics that I was taking for two and a half weeks whilst I had the ear infections. That destroys good bacteria as well doesn't it, who knows, but I feel like utter crap right now. 

[bradley1]

Definately the mcdonalds and coke, dont eat them they are full of crap no doubt!!

[tigerpaw]

This all sounds so familiar too me, I could have written this same post not to long ago. 

Your doing the right thing by seeing the phsyc dr and a therapist.

The lexapro 10mgs is still a small dose. Most get to 20mgs and higher before their symptoms start to go away.

I would ask about when you can increase the lexapro.  Nothing you have said is strange or weird its all so normal for anxiety, attacks, deprerssion and all.

When i finally hit the right med and dose I got better and can enjoy a normal day in work.

Stay fighting the good fight you will get better I am sure. It's just a hard fight at the beginiong.

Peace and God bless!!

[Aussie]

This all sounds so familiar too me, I could have written this same post not to long ago. 

Your doing the right thing by seeing the phsyc dr and a therapist.

The lexapro 10mgs is still a small dose. Most get to 20mgs and higher before their symptoms start to go away.

I would ask about when you can increase the lexapro.  Nothing you have said is strange or weird its all so normal for anxiety, attacks, deprerssion and all.

When i finally hit the right med and dose I got better and can enjoy a normal day in work.

Stay fighting the good fight you will get better I am sure. It's just a hard fight at the beginiong.

Peace and God bless!!

Thanks, I decided to fight it today and go to work instead of taking time off. I am glad I did. Even though I didn't feel as bad as yesterday it was still a pretty rough day and I was feeling anxious a lot of the day, although I was able to concentrate more and I would say my anxiety levels have slightly improved since yesterday but not much. I got home about an hour ago and I feel pretty calm at the moment but I know as soon as I wake up in the morning my anxiety levels will most likely be sky high again.

At the moment it has been raining all week so jogging is out of the question, but I can't wait for the weather to improve so that I can jog some of the stress out of my system.

Thanks for your reply Tiger and God bless you too.