feel like I'm never going to feel normal

[mandah2386]

I'm trying to hard to overcome this anxiety, but I have this constant fear that I'm never going to feel any better. I came across some old pictures this morning and it made me so sad, I want to feel like I did in those pictures! They weren't even that old, but it feels like an eternity! I have no happiness whatsoever in life. My husband and I haven't been intimate in months and I would rather lay on the couch than play with my daughter(that is so awful , I know) I'm certain that I'm dieing even though my chances of dying of anything at my age is extremely low(i'm only 22) I have no family health problems, my great-grandparents were all alive until a few years ago and they all died of old age, all in their 90's. My dad's side of the family are all obese, but nothing more than diabetes is wrong with them. No heart diease, no heart problems besides heart murmur/mitral valve and so I know that I have more of a chance of getting killed in a car accident that by a health problem but I just feel so awful all the time. Everyday I wake up in this hazy fog, like a medicine head. I feel light headed and get hot super easy. I can't do more than a little bit of housework at a time without having to sit down because I feel so whoozy. At this point I wish it was something physical, so that I could take some medicine and be done with it!

[Kayteecatt]

I totally understand how you feel.  My Ha came on pretty much over night.  One day I felt great and the next day I was rushing myself to the ER thinking I was having a heart attack...turned out to be my first panic attack. 

It's been almost a year for me now.  I can't believe I've given up almost a year of my life to this monster.  Sometimes I used to just get mad at the beast and push myself to do things it said I couldn't do.  Still though my bad days would outnumber my good ones.  I would again and again find myself crying under the covers because I just knew that getting out of bed would cause me to fall over dead.

I won't push anyone into meds, but I will tell you that taking Lexapro has been a wonderful change for me.  I take the lowest dose I can, but it's still made such a huge difference.  My husband is much happier now, my kids are thrilled because mommy's not hidden away in the bedroom, and I feel like I'm just that much closer to becoming who I was.

You hang in there.

[dan15]

Yeah it is hard.  For me, I have had anxiety on and off really bad since I was 13.  I have not been able to do some things that I have always wanted to do because of it.  I went to college and played college baseball, and I don't take back anything in my life, but there are times where I felt great, and I want that back.  It is just going to take work, and we have to be willing to do the work.  I hope things get better for you.

[momtoaprincess]

I understand, I look at old pics of myself too!  I was so MAD at myself today, the only thing I could do was work out even harder but in my head I was cursing myself out.  I feel like such a nutcase, I should be fine, why can't I get over this?  I do force myself to do things tho, thats my only advice to you.  I went to lunch w/ a friend today (we took our kids) and had such a "normal" time.  I felt alright until we got in the car (alone) to come home.  I kept thinking to myself "why the hell can't I be like her (my friend), she's not sitting around worrying everyday thats she's going to die of some serious illness".