The Cause for my PTSD

[Nika]

Hi everyone.

The cause for my PTSD can basically be summed up in the fact I spent the first few years of my life in an orphanage. I was raped and sexually abused by several people over a period of 11 years (even after being adopted). I had no safe place -- the abuse was happening in the hospital, in the orphanage, at home, at school. I still suffer from flashbacks today because of what happened a while ago, but no one in my face to face life sees the connection between my past and the anxiety and depression I experience today. I'm really glad to find people here that can relate.

I am also dating someone with PTSD. So far we have helped each other tremendously in our healing. It really helps not to be totally alone. Sometimes even online I feel totally alone because my story is too much for some readers. This isn't to say I have it worse than anyone else, but that my story is probably like a lot of other stories so I end up triggering a lot of people with my detailed accounts, which is too much for them to read at whatever point they are in their healing.

Anyway, my girlfriend and I decided to create a safety net and a support system for people with PTSD and for people who have loved ones with PTSD. Also for anyone who is interested in PTSD or thinks they might have it. Hopefully we will be able to build a sufficient support system for all the times when you're not in therapy or when the meds are just not enough or when it's 3:00 in the morning and all you need is to talk to someone.

Anyway, I'm glad to have met some people here on AnxietyZone. I hope you all the best on your healing journeys, and if you ever need to talk to another PTSD'er that gets it, I'm here. Hugs to all.

-Nika

[grywlf59]

Thank you for sharing your PTSD story with us.  I too was abused sexually as well as emotionally and physically. I also have had multiple traumas at other times in my life. I know that it upsets people when we tell of our bad experiences, but i also feel that others need to know that they are not alone in this. PTSD affects my daily life in many ways.  I am sure there are so any others out there that feel the same.  Yes, flashbacks are a big thing with me too.  I am so glad you have someone close to you to talk to about it and that you support each other in this.  I find that most people do not want to talk about their story.  I find that sad because talking about it with someone who cares and knows how it works is very helpful.