diagnosis frustration...feel like giving up...

[Kataisha]

Technically, medically speaking, I shouldn't be posting here. According to my medical records I don't have PTSD.

But I DO have PTSD.... I needed to know that anxiety at least in some form is included in my official (medical) diagnosis as its the symptom most debilitating in my life, and especially work, where people need to know official things like that.

Well, I spoke with my GP this morning.

She was once again very non-specific. Gave me the whole depression-and-anxiety-connection talk. She said I can put depression and anxiety down.
Apparantly the pdoc in his letter had just said depression.

I feel very very very discouraged.

If I hadn't grown in self control I'd be hurting myself now.

I have all the PTSD (and Social Phobia and Agoraphobia) symptoms, except that, if you have to be specific, the causing traumas don't come under the DSM (or ICD10, I don't know if its exactly the same) list. Never mind the dissociation.

However my therapist has agreed with me, in the recent past, that I do have PTSD, although she's not a massive fan of the whole label thing.

But with the whole medical thing, its like my illness is not real, is just a random event and not due to a lifetime of distress.
(*nearly dying while I was being born, and then no contact with my mother the first 3 weeks of my life.
*emotional abuse and some physical by my father, who threatened many times to send me away, have me put in a strait jacket, when I had done nothing wrong.
*witness domestic violence by my parents several times, and rows all the time at home.
*being the target of severe bullying, exclusion and name calling by a gang of approx 20 girls every day for 10 years with no support from school staff or home.)

*sigh*

I feel so despairing.
Everyday I live with being constantly on edge, keeping a hold on my adult self so I don't let the dissociation/panic take over too much.....the feeling people are following me, the not being able to cope with strangers in the office, the feeling like I have no skin, the hyper-vigilance that looks like paranoia... the not being able to handle strangers looking at me or being anywhere near close....all that effects me......a lot....
Am I the only one who cannot get her anxiety, never mind her PTSD, medically verified?

[apple]

The only ones that can diagnos for sure is a psycologist or psyciatrist, GP's can but tend not tho in case they are wrong because they are not specialized in it..  A councellor cant, even tho they are specialized they are not certified.

Maybe you can see a different psyc. tell them your past, what you go thru daily, your attacks.  then get your Diagnosis.  I believe you would be GAD.  Altho the situations can be like PTSD  It is usually only one major situation that claims this.  Yes abuse, reactive attatchment(from not being with your mother) all that can be the cause of GAD. 

GAD means general (kinda like a little bit of all the anxiety disorders)

You are right...you need to have the diagnosis before you can treat the problem.

I once had a psyc think I had Bipolar..but he talked to me like he was reading from a textbook so I stopped seeing him.12 years later I'm diagnosed GAD and Panic...but after too many changes in meds I had a bad episode and was put on an anti-psychotic(used for bipolar) and wouldnt you know it I finally have a med that works.  Seems a little serile that the bipolar meds make me feel better.

Some people just dont get the proper diagnosis for years in their life, some like 40 years before diagnosed.  Just dont give up and keep searching for your answer!  you will find it

[GMan86]

You will find the answer you were looking for. Just have faith. Find a new doc and start from scratch.
i've gone through similar situations as you did as a child. You are NOT alone. Remember that. God bless.