Please help! No one understands!

[wwilliams25]

Hello everyone. This is probably some of the worst symptoms I have ever dealt with and I try to convince myself that it's anxiety but it's not working. I wake up feeling dizzy and/or lightheaded and I can tell right away that the day will not be good.
My heart feels off. Sometimes it's beating funny, sometimes it's to fast, sometimes it's to slow. My head feels the worst. I feel so dizzy and disconnected from everything around me. I want to just lay down and sleep through it but I can't. I am completly freaked out and overwhelmed with the thoughts of dying. Sometimes I hug my kids and tell them I love them cause I truly don't believe I will be around much longer. I get this crazy tingling sensation way down deep that makes me feel like I am about to have a seizure. Dry mouth and severe nausea. This seriously last up to 3 days constant!!!! The days that follow I have multiple symptoms that exist without feeling anxiety. Numbness and tingling in arms, legs, face, and hands. The numbness only comes one side at a time. Either the right side of my body, leg, side, arm, face, and head or the left side of my body. I check my vital signs constantly cause that's all they do in the er anyway. Believe me I know i've been there 10 times and you would think I would feel better but I still want to go back everytime I feel bad and the last time I went I didn't even feel better while I was there and usually being at the hospital makes me feel safer but last time it didn't and I was freaking out so bad that I tried to convince them to keep me cause I didn't think I would make it through the night. Blood tests normal, CT scan with contrast of the chest and abdomen normal, chest x-ray normal. Abnormalities with an EKG and echocardiogram but the cardiologist said that the findings were normal. Positive d-dimer. (some kind of clotting test) That freaked me out!!!!! But no proof of a clot. So i'm getting worse and all medicine makes it worse even benzos. Feeling really bad today and once again feel like I'm dying and no one cares or understands. Life shouldn't be like like this and I know god did not put us on this earth to feel so terrible. I'm scared, I'm scared, I'm so very scared!!!!!!!!!

[tinalynn]

Welcome, first of all. After reading your post, I have to think that if something was seriously wrong(medically), after all the tests you've had done, the Drs.would be worried too.! They're not. Also, all your trips to the E.R have come up empty. Anything that showed up on these tests were also not enough to worry about, or the Dr. would've pursued it further. I know it's so hard to believe it's all anxiety related, but you've had everything else checked!! We've all been there, you're symptoms, so many of us have had, and then some. Please know we're all here for you! Hang in there.

[hanso1]

Hi there!
I agree that most importantly there is probably nothing physically wrong with you. They would have picked up on something by now.
You sound like you're going through something so similar that I went through last summer!
I had the same kind of symptoms and was telling my son that he was so lucky that he has so many people that love him and would take care of him b/c I was sure I was either going to die, end up in a mental institution or be paralized in a wheel chair.
Miraculously, none of that happened.
I got help.
Benzos alone did not help me, it just made me worse. Apparently, I was really depressed along with having severe anxiety.
What worked was taking Lexapro along with Ativan. I had to do both.
You mention meds didn't work for you.
What have you tried?

Just know that it's most likely not a physical disease, it's that your anxiety has turned physical.
Hold onto that.
Good luck!

[wwilliams25]

I have tried to convince myself that this is all anxiety and deep down I believe that some of it is but the feelings are so overwhelming that they eventually change my mind. I've read that the body can't put up with the fight or flight response very long but mine last for days. I have always been a anxious person and had problems with SOME anxiety. I had a kidney stone a few years ago and the pain made me have anxiety but when the pain was gone the anxiety was gone. So I'm so convinced that something is wrong and that is why I'm having anxiety. I know that the doctors have said that I'm fine but I always think doctors can be wrong. I am currently not taking any medication. Doctors precribed Kolonopin but one of my main symptoms is dizzyness and that makes it worse which in turn makes my anxiety worse. Tried Prozac, Effexor, and Prestiq but they all made my anxiety worse. I was given ativan in the er one time and it also made my dizzyness worse and totally freaked me out.
But after about 30 minutes I calmed down and sleep so good when I got home. If this is anxiety I am so amazed how much anxiety can mask heart problems. My heart just seems like it's all over the place, rises probably 20 beats a minute when I stand up and palpitations constantly. I'm not lying that some days I feel so sick I can't even get out of bed and do house work and I have to take the kids to daycare. I've lost everything do to this, my job and ability to be happy. I'm so frustrated and sometimes I really want there to be something wrong with me physically no matter what it is. I know that sounds crazy but the fear of the unknown is driving me crazy. I would not wish what is going on with me on my worst enemy!!!

[christiaan]

It is "normal" to be scared. I have been suffering from this for the past 10 months, and the 1st 6 of that was a living hell! Have been to 8 different doctors, 7 times in the ER and once in ICU. They also did all the blood test, scans and more...all came out negative, perfect health. My 9th doctor said I had Anxiety disorder, same as you. She gave me CIPRALEX and XANOR to take, and I must say it is working, slowly, but working. There are some days that is still crap, but for the most part feeling capable of resuming my day to day live. I suggest that you speak to your doctor and ask about these medication. It takes long to work. You can change your diet as well, more water, less carbonised drinks and keep away from coffee or any other "pick me up drinks" Try to be strong, and keep in mind, IT WILL GET BETTER!!!!

[Xalatimo]

My opinion is that there's nothing wrong with you besides anxiety.  The more you try to dig deeper and find the cause of your problems, the more your anxiety grows.  No amount of testing is going to be good enough to convince you that this isn't anxiety.  You've had a plethora of tests done -- and nothing has been found.  I just think it's time to accept that this is nothing more than anxiety, no matter how hard it is to believe.  The fear of the unknown is what drives this, but you have to realize that by continuing to doubt the diagnosis given to you, you're feeding your anxiety and making it impossible to recover.  Yes, there will be times that you'll feel scared and that something is wrong with you, but don't let that control how you think.  Feeling scared is a product of your anxiety disorder.  Don't overlook that.  The moment you feel scared remind yourself that you're supposed to feel scared -- you have anxiety.  It's a symptom of an anxiety disorder, not a "real" illness.  Nothing is wrong with feeling scared.  The problem occurs when you start thinking that since you're feeling scared, there must be something wrong, which isn't the case.  For example, heart palpitations (a scary symptom to some), are one of the most common symptoms of anxiety you can get.  What's more likely, anxiety, or a heart condition that numerous doctors have missed?  I'll go with anxiety.