YIKES!!!! Big mistake

[lovejah75]

You guessed it....I googled! Its the hands falling asleep at night thing. The first sight that came up was a Neurological Forum and all the people on it have MS and their hands fall asleep at night. Several of them say it was there first symptom. Im so freaked out. I went to the Neuro a couple weeks ago and he said I dont have MS, he just did the in office exam but said I would just have to trust him and that I dont have it. I trust him..I think!

Yikes! Does anyone else have hands falling asleep at night and been told you do not have MS. ????

lovejah75

[brandons_mom]

Lovejah,

I feel so badly for you that you are still so scared there is something wrong with you even after your neuro appointment.  I know just how you feel.  I also wish that I could trust my doctors judgment without the use of further laboratory testing, but that's just not the case.  I am going in for a ct scan and probably an EEG to finally put my mind at rest (I hope) and maybe you should consider the same.  You have three options: accept the FACT that there is nothing neurologically wrong with you, seek help for your anxiety and live your life to the fullest 2.Keep coming here, even after your neuro appt., and post about every little twitch and pain that happens to your body in the hopes other's with anxiety have felt the same way 3. Go in for a CT or MRI and get that extra little bit of reassurance that I pray will put your mind to rest.  None of these options sound pleasent but I think the the second one is the most unhealthy.  This site is wonderful for those who need understanding and support in trying to recover from HA, not to feed off of eachother's symptoms.  I haven't really posted anymore about my symptoms because I know it just there will just be another one in a couple of days/seconds/hours/weeks, and nothing no one says will completely make me believe there is nothing wrong with me but ME.  It's an addiction coming here and convincing ourselves for the time being that other's have our woes and pains but, it is not the cure to the real problem and that's your anxiety.  I don't believe you've anything wrong with you at all.  I think you are young, beautiful and blatantly wasting your life away by worrying about these things that are non existent.  I know the thought of having a CT or MRI is almost paralyzing.  Sometimes, you just have to face your fear in order to conquer it.  I don't want to be afraid anymore.  I have too much of a life and too many people in it counting on me to be a part of it to sit around depressed all the time, thinking I have some sinister illness that will ruin everything.  It's not worth it.  One day, we will get sick, we will die and my own personal belief is that this life is just a test, so suffering is a must if we're to learn anything of true value for whatever God truly has planned for us.  I don't ask too many questions about the after life or heaven and hell....I just trust that we're here, it's for a purpose and we need to do out best to live accordingly with the right attitudes, otherwise it's all in vain.  Life wasn't meant to be lived in vain.  Don't waste any more of your time and make a CHOICE, because your healing can begin now if you want it to.  I feel liberated with my new attitude and maybe I am weak for going in for a CT scan, but I feel like I'm just conquering one of my fears and afterwards, if everything comes back normal, I will finally put all this 0103. behind me, slap myself in the face and make myself snap out of it.  I have no choice but to do just that.  These last 8 months since my husband left have been debilitating.  I've thought I had everything from schizophrenia to Alzheimer's and I just turned 23 years old!!  I can't keep affording to go the doctor when I'm a single mother and should be most concerned with putting food on the dinner table for my son, or paying my bills, working as much as I can to support the two of us.  I am NOT seeing life in the right way right now and I know that.  I've seen life the way it is supposed to be and it's beautiful and completely fulfilling regardless of your circumstances in life.  I want to be there again.  I want to walk outside first thing early in the morning, take a deep breath and smell the autumn air and thank God that I'm alive and that I'm blessed with so many wonderful things that I don't want to take for granted.  I don't want the first thing I do in the morning to wake up and log on to anxietyzone.com to see if someone responded to a post, or if anyone is having the same feelings/symptoms as I am because as much as I respect everyone here and love chatting it up, I have a life I need to live.  So, please make the right choice for your own life.  I'm thinking accepting your neuro's assessment of you would be the most logical and anxiety provoking way to go.  The anxiety will subside but you need to stop asking people about your symptoms, regardless of how real they are.  If you begin to have convulsive seizures, start coughing up tons of blood or your heart stops beating, THEN by all means, go to the freakin' emergency room.  But, don't take these minor, completely sporadic symptoms and assume that you have something you don't because it's a waste of time and money and most importantly, your own sanity.  Well, the time is most important too because you can't get that back but you know what I mean.  I pray that you make the choice that will help you get better, not continue you in this downward spiral that leads into nothing but more reassurance, more frustrations and ultimately, more feelings of being defeated.  I felt so defeated last week until I made the CHOICE, I was going into the doctor and having a CT scan done, and I will force myself to accept the results.  There is always hope.  I am not trying to sound preachy in any way, shape or form and actually don't even read the Bible nearly as much I want to but, this verse always comes to my mind when I feel so hopeless and defeated.  Actually though, as I'm sitting here looking for this verse for you, the Bible is full of truth...I'm seeing things I've never seen before that make a lot of sense. But, anyways...you've heard this I'm sure "And now these three things remain: faith, hope and love.  But the greatest of these is love."        I've been so scared lovejah these last few months that I was all alone, I've had existential doubts and felt that if God didn't exist then basically, I was fucked!!! But, I know in my heart I believe more than anything God exists now.  All I have to do is look into my son's eyes and know that.  I've not been afraid of death, I've been afraid of life.  But I'm going to run towards it now because if the Bible is true and God says that these three things last forever, then nothing that happens in this life will ever take that away from us: nothing.  Not even a brain tumor   Do something today that you wouldn't normally do.  I'm not sure of what you normally do but try writing letters to all those that are closest to you and tell them how much you love them and how much they mean to you.  Maybe you'll give them to them, maybe you won't, but just writing to people you love opens up a new way for you mind to explore those little things in life that we tend to forget are the most meaningful when we're in the midst of one of these obsessions.  The obsessions becomes primary, while all other things in life come secondary.  Don't lie to yourself, you know that's not true.  MAKE yourself forget about this by exercising your brain with things that are wholesome and true, things that give no space to be negative.  I'm really sorry this post was so long and I probably didn't answer any of your questions.  No, I don' think you have MS at all, I think you should trust your neuro and forgetta 'bout it!!!!  I'll pray for you sweetie, and I hope your eye twitch gets better lol I hate when that happens!!

Ash

[maddie98]

My arms, and left side of my face feel weird...numb like when I wake up or turn over at night....sometimes my left ear feels numb too!  It all has to do with nerve compression.  We are actually studying neuro in my A&P class and this is quite common for people to get...my hubby gets it too.  Try not to bother yourself with the thoughts of MS....this is not MS.....try not to google....if you go looking for something you will find it.  If I google pimples on face....I'm sure I could fine some deadly disease that presented with someone getting a pimple on their face.  Trust your doctor.....they have much more training than we do.  I hope you feel better.....no more google either.

-Amy

[angela52884]

my hands always fall asleep but its usually because Im am lying on them or something. You are probably just laying on a nerve or something! You are fine!